Archive for April, 2008
Wednesday, April 30th, 2008
i can never know
something that hundreds of thousands of other fine people know: what it is like to relocate to portland.
being one of an increasingly uncommon passel of folks who were actually spawned and reared in this place, means i am surrounded by a whole mad herd of people who came here on purpose. and i feel lucky. [...]
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Saturday, April 26th, 2008
everything hits at once
indeed things are off at a gallop. and as in the old chinese proverb, living in interesting times might be something of a curse.
i can point to nothing that feels settled. no thing of which i am totally certain. no course to which i am fully committed. all the while i am in [...]
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Monday, April 21st, 2008
stupid oldness
sigh.
friend lyza and i started a 10k training program this week. not actually going to run a 10k, just gonna train for one. this after about 9 months of depression induced inactivity. i love running. it makes me feel strong and i consistently get a gratifying runners high, so it’s one of my preferred methods [...]
No Comments » - Posted in Being Humbled, Pain and/or Suffering by autumnrouse
Sunday, April 20th, 2008
the way my luck goes
is a little strange, i will admit. bad things happen to me all the time, but they somehow manage to never be as bad as they could be, so i end up feeling pretty lucky all things considered.
what happened to me on thursday is a classic example of this phenomenon.
i left work a wee bit [...]
No Comments » - Posted in Being Humbled, Go-ing by autumnrouse
Tuesday, April 15th, 2008
i want my blankie
today has been one of those days that can’t be objectively classified as bad, yet is still end up feeling unaccountably sad.i mean, it wasn’t totally smooth sailing. i did have a hiccup about not having my schedule properly calibrated, but i think i got over that about 7.5 hours ago.still, i’m sad. and when [...]
No Comments » - Posted in Pain and/or Suffering, Random Thoughts by autumnrouse
Monday, April 14th, 2008
i would be better served, i think
if i stopped vastly overestimating my fitness level and expecting to keep up with that boy i like.
he is much fitter than i am. this may not always be the case, but it is most certainly true at the moment.
i mention that my bike is back from being looked over by my bike-fanatic friend joe. [...]
No Comments » - Posted in Being Humbled, Fun n' Games, Go-ing by autumnrouse
Thursday, April 10th, 2008
i am certain
that the contents of my purse say something about me. i think i like what it says…obvious things like wallet and keys aside, we have;Heidegger: Basic Writings tin of dicestring of pearlsmatchbook from favorite steakhousefuzzy socks for friend lyzaburt’s bees lip shtuffbust magazinegraphing calculatorlaquered hairstickextremely fancy log book with which to track expenditures (the irony [...]
No Comments » - Posted in Fun n' Games, Musings, Random Thoughts, contentment by autumnrouse
Tuesday, April 8th, 2008
dog mountain and the return of the black toenail of doom
i’ll be wearing open toed shoes for the rest of this week, regardless of the not-yet-actually-springlike weather. why? well…someone i like a real lot suggested we hike up dog mountain. not knowing any better… i agreed. even though the weather was less than ideal, i slipped on my shiny new fleece and prepared to [...]
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Saturday, April 5th, 2008
Please: No Mo’ Emo Ro Co
k? it’s been a bit of an ass kicker lately. and i mean, i’m used to sad. sad is manageable. sad is familiar. it’s the whipsaw back and forth from giddy excitement and joy to anxiety and dismay i’m having the most trouble adapting to.
as much as i have courted chaos in the past, i [...]
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Saturday, April 5th, 2008
Please: No Mo’ Emo Ro Co
k? it’s been a bit of an ass kicker lately. and i mean, i’m used to sad. sad is manageable. sad is familiar. it’s the whipsaw back and forth from giddy excitement and joy to anxiety and dismay i’m having the most trouble adapting to.
as much as i have courted chaos in the past, i [...]