Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008

Dress Up is My Favorite Game

and not only because my birthday is Halloween.
i am intoxicated by patterns and textures, bags and shoes, silk and corduroy. i delight in surveying, and selecting, just the right combination of my garments. i array myself with clothes like armor and go to face the world thus protected, or exposed, depending on my aim.
each occasion [...]

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Friday, September 19th, 2008

only me, not you, just me

*** i consider this post the first in a series i am going to call “Wholly Unsurprising Revelations” if you care to make any yourself, please, feel free!!***

Wholly Unsurprising Revelation: It is no fun to have someone point out things you do not like about yourself.
i am well aware of my shortcomings. in fact, i [...]

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Friday, September 5th, 2008

see-through-me

there seems to be light shining from somewhere. it casts itself through me, but falls, seemingly without resistance, on the ground before my feet.
i’ve had this strange feeling for the last few days, of being out of my body and totally disconnected from my brain. i hear myself saying things i cannot credit. i feel [...]

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Friday, July 11th, 2008

things at which i am randomly pretty good for no apparent reason

i can sew. and this flies in the face of my fundamentally uncrafty nature. i mean, i like crafts, and appreciate people who are crafty, it just generally requires a level of manual dexterity which i am painfully lacking. but for whatever reason, i can sew. tiny perfect stitches. and no one taught me this [...]

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Monday, July 7th, 2008

being wrong can be a good thing

i mean, i like to think i have it all figured out, but in some cases, what i think i have figured out kinda sucks. and in those cases, it’s really nice to be wrong.
so, here’s to wrongness today, in all its glory.
to celebrate i’m going to go out after work and play a little [...]

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Friday, June 27th, 2008

i might splode

i guess when i think about what qualities define me, i’d be reluctant to admit that “creative” ranks up there pretty high, but it seems to be true. i say this because i know when i’m not playing music, pasting things as my own weenie attempts at art, taking (poor) photographs, or something in that [...]

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Thursday, June 19th, 2008

you can’t catch me

i work in a doctors office and we have a handful of books in the reception area for the childlings to enjoy while they’re waiting. one of my coworkers picked up “The Gingerbread Man” and started flipping through it. glancing over at the pages a wave of nostalgia washed over me as i realized: this [...]

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Sunday, June 15th, 2008

but i am le tired

i have been noticing lately that i have a strange reflexive reaction to say, like a litany, certain phrases that i’ve picked up over the course of my life.
they’re embedded in my consciousness. there are a bunch of em. they are lines from movies, commercials, things my friends or lovers have said to [...]

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Thursday, June 12th, 2008

its been a plunky plunky day

First Willie Nelson all morning. Soulful, lovely, winsome. I forget how deeply vintage country touches me. Now on OPB I’m watching Pete Seeger and he’s so wise and intelligent and political and gifted. It really does make me want to learn the banjo and sing heartwrenching songs about something light and true.

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Wednesday, June 11th, 2008

in the event of the apocalypse

turns out, i’ll be well fixed for shampoo.
i think this is weird.
i’m not especially fussy about my hair. i kinda hate it actually. by which i mean to say, we have a very adversarial relationship. it wants to curl, though i wish it was straight. it grows where i do not want it to and [...]

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