Wherein it is Full Dark
The Winter Solstice was 12/21
I am always happy when it arrives, not only because it is the birthday of one of my favorite humans, but because it augurs the moment it has become as dark as it is going to get for the year, and the return of the light is about to begin.
I have felt the darkness quite keenly of late. Having always lived above the 45th parallel I am no stranger to the dimness of winter, but this year, despite a milder than average fall, the darkness encroached in other ways.
I put up my Christmas tree the 2nd week in November to bring a little extra (de)light into view. I have been lighting candles and reveling in small luxuries to cope. I recognize I am still walking through the Dark Night of the Soul, but have been able to use the opportunity to marvel at the starlight and notice the faintest hint of pink on the horizon that assures me dawn is coming.
I have also been spending time planning for what I want to see in my life when the light is shining on it again. My magic can be difficult to harness unless I have the clearest vision for it to follow; my efforts are all directed at building the most lucid and precise template for my future.
In the past I have almost exclusively focused on the things I DO want for my life, and assumed the things I don’t want will be crowded out. The last few years have made it clear to me that only speaking to the bright and shiny things leaves a lot of negative space – literally and figuratively – to fill itself.
So now, in this time of darkness that is turning toward light, I confront the shadows within and without. I declare that I invite prosperity and deny tumult. I welcome great love and refuse obsession. I embrace refuge and reject domination.
As important as it is to understand what my future is, so too must I project what it is not.
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